13 September 2012

Remembering Our Babies


"Because someone we love is in Heaven, there's a little bit of heaven in our home."



Today was our little September baby's due date.

It's difficult knowing today there won't be a baby here to love, hold, cuddle, feed, or take for walks. That first miscarriage was easily the most difficult thing I've ever been through.

As we came closer to our baby's due date I was having a difficult time because there isn't a grave to visit or decorate, there's no picture of our baby to look at, we don't even know if it was a little boy or a little girl we lost. So what do we do?

I didn't want to let today go by like our baby never happened. I'm sure anyone who has experienced a tragedy or life changing event can understand this. Everyone else goes about their lives like nothing has changed, but for you it has, your life isn't the same anymore.

I went through a lot of information about dealing with loss and came up with something to help me remember and close this chapter. I made a little necklace to remember our babies. There's an "A" for Aurelia, and two small hearts -- one for our September baby and the other for our January baby. They're small, so its not in your face "hey we lost children!" but it's something I can have with me to remember they were here for however short a time :)

I'm going to spend today loving and being a mom to the child we do still have here :)


4 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry you had to go through that twice, but what a sweet way to remember your two little ones. As always, you're in my prayers and I hope you get a chance to adopt soon.

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  2. Ok you just made me cry. You're amazing with words. And this is exactly what I was feeling on our baby's due date. What an awesome necklace. I have been trying a way to do something sentimental but not over the top, and I think you did just that.
    Love you friend!

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  3. I am so happy you shared this post. I'm so sorry that you had to experience two miscarriages. That must have been so hard. I love your necklace, that is a wonderful idea. I may just have to make one myself someday. I love little reminders of the precious part of our family that is in heaven as well as the one's we have here. I am so impressed with your fabulous blog and I love to hear about the things that are going on with your life. Thanks again for sharing! Love ya, Jess!

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  4. P.S. I love your dog and I want one :)

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