"Because someone we love is in Heaven, there's a little bit of heaven in our home."
Today was our little September baby's due date.
It's difficult knowing today there won't be a baby here to love, hold, cuddle, feed, or take for walks. That first miscarriage was easily the most difficult thing I've ever been through.
As we came closer to our baby's due date I was having a difficult time because there isn't a grave to visit or decorate, there's no picture of our baby to look at, we don't even know if it was a little boy or a little girl we lost. So what do we do?
I didn't want to let today go by like our baby never happened. I'm sure anyone who has experienced a tragedy or life changing event can understand this. Everyone else goes about their lives like nothing has changed, but for you it has, your life isn't the same anymore.
I went through a lot of information about dealing with loss and came up with something to help me remember and close this chapter. I made a little necklace to remember our babies. There's an "A" for Aurelia, and two small hearts -- one for our September baby and the other for our January baby. They're small, so its not in your face "hey we lost children!" but it's something I can have with me to remember they were here for however short a time :)
I'm going to spend today loving and being a mom to the child we do still have here :)